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Syida Starr, 221289twitter/facebook/blogger if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? wait for me, Pictures
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Saturday, May 31, 2008
abang this place is growing fucking-ly annoying... i cant stand this and will leave when my time is due... i remembered when i was small i would ask mom why i dont have a big brother? and i will ask mom to give me a big brother.. but instead, i got a lil brother after 10years pluss.... then, about 6years later, i started to see china man coming into my house, and i started call these chinese guys 'abang'... then we will show pics of ourselves n family n frens... ask age, birthdates, hometown.... now we r practically rolling around in front of the tv, pillow fighting... with good morning, wan 'an, ni hao, huai ren, makan, xie xie, bu yao ta wo, chow yan.... we grow on each other... i like having them around.. and tried to imagine the day when they will have to head home.. back to their family, children, frens in china.... hmm.... somethings are jus beyond our control... i seem to love them more than my own family... why.... there is a wall in the living room decorated with mom n dad wedding pic in the middle,from left, daneal baby pic, then kak siti wedding pic, then wani wedding pic, then fiqa pic taken at downtown east... where am i...??? ALLAH knows.... hmmm.... i asked mom "asl gmbar i tk da?? sume org ader.. asl i tk da??" she said "ko asik nk amik gmbr jek, tk nk.. lari2.. tk da lah... aku tk da gmbr kau pon" so i jus shut the fuck up, go to my room and stare aimlessly at all my framed up pic hanging on my wall............ she could have asked. but the way i see the wall in the living room, there r no more space.... not even for one pic... coz im too fat n wont fit anywhere on the wall.... so are these reasons or just fucked excuse that i look for to justify the fact that i somehow seem to treasure outsiders better than my own family..?? i dont have the answer... "let daneal play the laptop, if not he will get bored and go out..." "fiqa is out with her frens to bugis doing god-knows-what" "kak siti pandai.. sume je blaja sendiri..." "wani lawa... je kalo tungu lame sikit dapat laki bagos" "kau p kuruskn badan lah... bodoh sangat... pasal gemok la kau jadi bodoh" "syida gemok" i just told her that tomorow im goin to amk with my frens to study for monday n tuesday exam... "cakap jek blaja, tau tau tnga merayap ngn jantan" am i going to hell?? ok, so she does buy me clothes n feed me well, give me my pocket money, pay for my japanese book... but then i somehow dont feel content... i am goin to hell... so wani.... i have updated my fucking blog.. tag me ok... my abang xiaohui jian bing ai hua ming xiaoyu (fulin) zhou haichuan love syidazz one way ticket to hell (i hate u) sing for the moment - eminem They say music can alter moods and talk to you Well, can it load a gun for you and cock it too? Labels: abang Tuesday, May 27, 2008
EMINEM THERE WAS SOMETHING I WANNA BLOG ABOUT BUT I SEEM TO HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL BOUT IT.. DARN! WELL, ONE THING FOR SURE, I LOVE EMINEM... NOT JUZ LOVE, HE IS MY IDOL!! EVERY THING HE SAYS, SINGS JUZ SEEM TO MAKE LOTSA SENSE N IS LOGICALLY SANE... HMM... SOMEHOW... MOSH IS DEADLY AND I LOVE IT. SYIDAZZ IDOLIZES HER FAVOURITE RAPPER KNOW ALL HIS SONGS. Labels: EMINEM IS KING Monday, May 19, 2008
JLPT FEVER im trying to learn japanese language.. but not hard enough.. i dun understand what the heck they are writing.. shitt!! im feeling angry with myself coz im not putting enough effort in this oppurtunity of a lifetime!! i definitely have to do something bout this shit!! damn!! the situation is definitely not helping.. esp mom!! she is somehow agaisnt the idea of me trying to get a place in japan!! u noe our history with japan.. that is the reason why... darn!! i mean that is the past and i believe japan has apologise or something for these shits that happen.. one thing for sure i am in charge of my life.. decisions are made by me.. i may get influenced.. but overall decisions, definitely me.!! btw, the JLPT test is in mid august!! i feel like a dead duck!! i am getting the hang of hiragana and katakana... but kanji....?? it is easier for chinese people coz it is mostly based on chinese language somehow.. and if i get this, this will be the greatest achievement for me... and anione want to give me free japanese lesson?? written and oral?? PLEASE... :D allah help me please!!! more memory space perhaps??? lol!!! im goin bonkers!! crazy... syidazz JLPT fever strikes!! really sick-ass will anione miss me if im gone??? Labels: success is my only muther fuckin option Saturday, May 17, 2008
bad bad i juz came back from whitesands.. i went with fiqa n daneal.. fiqa cut hair, i make specs, n then we all play at arcade... then want to go home fiqa n daneal wan buy ice cream, so i tot, wats the harm.. i bought them one mcdonald choc sundae... then daneal cried!!!! he wanted the cone!! i said later spill so jus take the sundae.. he went on crying all the way, i wan freakking angry sia...!!! then at bus 359, i offer him the ice cream again n he ate the ice cream sobbing like i have beaten the shitt outta him... i will continue later if i free...!! Labels: no more goin outt with daneal alone Tuesday, May 13, 2008
the journey matters things are definitely not going as smooth as i expected... haiz.. y..??? i tried my best to change for the better. but somehow a huge ball of doubt is still hanging around!! please gimme a chance to improve myself n stop judging me by my past misdeeds.. i realise my mistakes and trying not to repeat it.... but..... syidazz almost losing.... hope some chinese songs r nice to listen to.... -_- p.s yesterday i thot of one thing.... "fucker" n "fuckee"... hmmm... Labels: the rocky road to self improvement Friday, May 2, 2008
scholarship please.... iam trying to register myself to get a diploma in japan... im going through japan embassy in singapore to apply for a schoarship from japan government, to study automotive in japan!! i hope i would get the scholarship!! and and would earn enough to get by the 1st few month there if i get the scholarship... i really wanna get overseas experience.. be it study or work... study is better coz when i graduate, i would be able to get a good job here in singapore.. support myself and my family... i will try my very best to grab this opportunity to study in japan n get a good diploma... if i dont get it, i will still strive to be my best and will make it an experience to kick myself further n make this life worthwhile.... shootzz.. i feel like im talking nonsense.. hehhe..lol... but this is what i have to live for... all i ever wanted... i will embrace the joys and hardships that come with the opportunity.. and hopefully, with Allah's Blessing, and my parents, i will be able to get through smoothly...!! come on.. please pray for me... hehhe... to get the scholarship to study automotive in japan love yall! thankzz.. i would like to thank the teacher that has inspired me these years in ITE... - MR CHEW EK SOO (UR DEDICATION TO TEACH US) -MY PAUL (UR PASSION FOR TEACHING US) -MR LIM YAM MENG (UR CARE AND CONCERN FOR OUR FUTURE) -MR LIM GOI HANG (UR ENDLESS SACARSM TO WAKE US UP) AND ALL OTHER TEACHER IN ITE ANG MO KIO THAT I MAY NOT KNOW UR NAME.. BUT UR CRITICISM, AND CONCERN TOUCHES ME... AND ALSO RAFIQAH!! THANKS FOR THE NOTES, MORNING CALLS, SACARSM, SCOLDING AND LOTS MORE... SYIDAZZ TOUC HED HINDI SONGS p.s ive been watching too much hindi movie now.. haizz... lol Labels: strenght to live |
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