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Syida Starr, 221289twitter/facebook/blogger if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? wait for me, Pictures
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
DRIVERS N CARS I AM MOST WILLING TO BE RUN DOWN BY THESE CARS, DRIVEN BY THESE DRIVERS - : -IVAN LIM (WINK**) -RYUJI MIKI -CASPER CANUL -LEWIS HAMILTON -KEKE ROSBERG -FERNANDO ALONSO -MICHAEL SCHUMACHER CARS - : -FERRARI (ALL MODELS WELCOME) -LEXUS -MAZDA RX-7 -NISSAN FAIRLADY, SILVIA S15 -TOYOTA CHASER!!! (hint : FD) -NISSAN NAVARA (2 CABIN ONLY) -SUBARU WRX, IMPREZA, TRIBECA -ANY VINTAGE CARS!! (ESP. CHEVVY) --------------------------------------------------------- IF I WERE TO BE RUN DOWN BY THE PEOPLE AND CARS STATED ABOVE, AND SURVIVE, I WILL CONTINUE WITH LIFE WITH PRIDE. IF I DO NOT, THEN I WILL LEAVE THE WORLD WITH PRIDE. ---------------------------------------------------------- DRVERS ARE NON-NEGOTIABLE PRIORITY GIVEN TO DRIVERS TO CHOOSE THEIR CARS, EVEN IF IT IS NOT STATED ABOVE. SYIDAZZ DETERMINED Labels: RUN DOWN Sunday, April 27, 2008
in the making saturday - i went to donate blood with mommy at pasir ris east cc  -thats mine!!- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- sunday - i went to Formula Drift 2008 @ Changi Exhibition Centre with daneal.  -thats me n daneal at the stand- ---------------------------------------------- i am still disgusted at my misdeeds in the past. i have promised myself to never repeat the same misdeeds so that i am able to respect and look at myself in the eyes with pride in the future. so i dedicate my life to achieving my goals, aims, whatever you call it.
syidazz calm !!success is my only mutherfuckin option!! Labels: soo close Friday, April 25, 2008
graduate... i was surfing aimlessly on the net, watching QAF here in my room, when something strike me... i realized that im gonna graduate hopefully by end of this year... i feel excited, sad, somewhat heartbroken... Happy - coz i will be able to go out and experience the world, earn income, no CCA's.. lol! Sad & Heart broken - coz it means that i wont be able to meet them at the level 2 toilet, bath after S/W n douse ourselves with perfume, sit in class n hear them call me 'abang'... and some lil things that seem so silly.. like dizturb gan, slap euler neck, tease sihan china accent... hehhe.... iim not sure how we will continue to be friends, coz i not that good at keeping them... i will sms once in a while i suppose... hmm... but, 1st of all, i pray that we will all graduate together happily and walk out of the school thanking our teacher, Mr Chew Ek Soo, and maybe go chiong for the last time together... get wasted, drunk, go crazy... i hope that mommy wont spoil the plans... we may be heading for sentosa.. coz last year, i didnt make it.. hehhs.... haiz... anticipation is killing me... hahaah!! The Boys - Automotive Clans (AA0701B/AATJ) ~asyraf - acap ~taufiq - fiq ~firdauz - Z ~firdaus - S ~shaqir - qir ~rafiqah - bonz (lol) ~hafiz - apiz (kecik/pendek) ~adam - adam ~wei kiat - ah kiat ~seetoh - weng yew ~yan yong - sheepy (cucumber) ~rasyidah - syidazz (me) syidazz roller coaster graduation (friends forever) - vitamin c Labels: friends forever Tuesday, April 22, 2008
penat seyy 1 house + 2 teenager girls + 1 Daneal + 1 grandfather + 1 set of parents = BUSY TIRED BUSY TIRED BUSY TIRED today is tuesday.. which means atok has been here for 2 days... and im tired like fuck... but its ok i tink.. coz i feel some sense of responsibility that i cannot just shout my heads off when im angry, mad, frustrated or juz in a plain crazy mood... i have to think about atok, who may be shocked, before i shout my lungs off... he has asked me to buy papaya for him since yesterday night... lol!!! he die die wants papaya.. and pineapple.. but he doesnt want the ones from sarawak... he want the pineapple from some place i dont even know.. so i have to politely tell him that im the last person will he look for in the pineaple department... hahhah!! school is ok i guess... mustafa has been getting on my nerves... fuck it... dont give a damn aniwae.. im getting the hang of 2nd year in school... the studies, teachers, expectations, play and a lot more... it tiring u noe... S/W is tiring... i have to pass my NAPFA Test!!! i can even run a few metres without losing my mind... and they expect me to pass...??? ouuta their mind, over my dead body.. hehhhehe.. the april 2008 intake girls is fucked i guess.. i dont expect them to smile thier heads off when they see us.. but there is this thing such as mind ur own business.. and stop staring when u see us walk by coz i noe im cute... this girl juz came in,, 1st day and look at me like i owe her mother my fucking life... FYI, YOU ARE NOT IMPORTANT AND YOU ARE FU-UGLY... I DONT LIKE YOUR FACE, SO GET OUTTA MY WAY! i really hope that 2008 will run smoothly from here... i need to graduate with my NITEC cert and hopefully i will be approved for the warehousing course... according to plan, i should be working, latest, by Mar 2009... Xiaohui is goin to Japan in 2010 to work!! hmmm.... i said i wana follow him!! hehee!! see how things go luhh!!! btw, im gonna stop using the handphone in maybe 2yrs time... its taking too much of money, electricity... i may switch to iPod, or MP4 or something else for music, videos, etc... slowly, i hope to get used to not being mobile... lol!!! hopefully.. btw, im still in love with Hady Mirza... im watching kess of Queer As Folk... why..? coz atok here.. if he sees it, im d.e.a.d.... lol! soits better i concentrate on working hard to earn a two-way ticket for me n wani to go to Canada and experience QAF!! and get the VCD!!!! the COMPLETE BOXSET!! NO, IM STILL NOT OVER WITH QAF!!! syidazz tired but happy through the fire - hady mirza Labels: i very the tired u noe... lol... Thursday, April 17, 2008
humanss?? been sometime ive been here.. i m currently obsessed with Hady Mirza.. huhuhh... i dunno why... ( u shud cek out his rendition of 'through the fire') ive been busy with school these days.. i've stopped working for sometime.. i feel reluctant to go back to werk when ah wen msg me this afternoon... i agreed coz i gonna get thru my driving license smoothly... im watching american idol now.. n jason castro is hott!!!! waaa~~!!! and as i was saying... i gonna work back with andrew at amk tiz time.. the place is atrociously hot.. and i mean sweating-hot!! not sexy-hot... hmmm... i really want to graduate, get my beautiful cert and get working towards my goal, my dream, my life... sometimes i feel that so much is expected of us as humans, i juz wanna curl up like a baby, drink milk, shit in a diaper, throw up on my bed... i completely forgot how it feels like to be a baby with no worries.. edryan looks all smiley when he goes behind the t.v, tottering to the kitchen by himself, sooo cute luhh..!!!! but then again, when u r a kid u r totally helpless... the new paper today report about two sisters, 2yrs & 3yrs old, left at JB in a care of a a stranger.. innocent kids... i feel for them... i wonder wat if the stranger were to keep those kids and force them to slavery or worst, prostitution.. wouldnt these innocent kids life be destroyed? like i have said.. sometimes, people can be soo dumb, no matter how smart they seemed... jason castro is soo hot!! i love hady mirza too..!! im goin crazy man... hmmm... help..?? anione?? syidazz worried innocence - avril lavinge p.s it sux being a malay, its cool being a muslim... geylang utd sux too!!! hahahhaha!!!! Labels: jason n hady is hott Monday, April 14, 2008
supply and demand of prostitution there was this article in the NewPaper recently about getting massuers to lock up their pants or skirt up to reduce prostitution. i was amazed at how dumb people can get. in case they dont know, there is this thing called 'blow jobs' and 'hand jobs'. and if she is wearing a skirt, what is the use of locking up her zip?? and especially, this is definitely NOT a one-way business! its supply-and-demand business! if there is no demand for GUYS to get their dick serviced, i believe there will not be any supply for the demand. correct me if im wrong... and why make it look as if all the girls love going into this line? ok, some of them may throw themselves into this line willingly, but there are those who are forced into fucking old retards.! right? e.g child prostitution... yes, drastic measures for overnight changes is not possible. maybe if the old retards will stop goin over for 'service', this kind of business wont thrive. in some place, i read, they convict those who DEMAND for the SUPPLY. and if caught, BOTH will be punished, but the DEMAND will receive heavier sentence or fines. i believe this is a good, if not great, idea. then maybe man will think twice before asking 'how much?' coz the price is not inclusive of family crisis, fine, possible jail term, and esp the BIG "P" = PRIDE syidazz worried through the fire - hady mirza Labels: lock up Thursday, April 10, 2008
The most common form of HIV transmission in Singapore: "less than 2% of infections are from intravenous drug use. 70% of sexual transmission is through heterosexual intercourse" - quoted from the following website. http://www.afa.org.sg/quizformanswer.asp this shows that, in singapore, HIV transmission are commonly through heterosexual intercourse. to those that similates gay people to HIV or AIDS can go fuck themselves. intavenous drug use means that drug abusers are infected by sharing syringes. syidazz truth Labels: the truth about being gay my friend He eats mee soup I eat asam pedas He eats with chopsticks I eat with my hands Together, we sit in front of the TV and eat He speak mandarin I speak malay He teach me mandarin I teach him english Together, we communicate He call me Syida I call him Xiaohui Together, we step on each others foot playfuly --------------------------------------------- i noe the poem sound soo lame but he is my friend he came from china 6 yrs ago and still have 4 more years before he can go back home to his mom, sister n girlfriend but he is goin to visit them hopefully this september for a month then come back here to work as for me, i am home with my mom, sister and brother but i feel bothered by them i wanna go away to some counrty so that maybe i can miss them i wanna do stuff that i want to without anyone stopping me i dont wanna ask for anyone permission to live my life i wanna spread my wings so wide so i wont regret this life in short i just wanna live my life is that too much to ask for is that so wrong why must i live in fear why must i live under your shadows why cant i leave without being blamed why... its not a question its a statement do you regret having me do you hate me for who i am do you want me to leave you dont you wanna see me anymore do you... wait a minute.. i was suppose to be blogging about my friend Xiaohui instead im ranting my life away *sigh* syidazz in pieces she break me superman - five for fighting ps. i love u muttons Labels: broken from inside out Wednesday, April 9, 2008
sob** Thailand - The Princess (Anothai & Princess Dala) ~the 1st show to ever make me cry like a frikk~ Phillipines - Pangako Sa Yo (Nathaneil & Yna) North America - Queer As Folk (Brian & Justin, Ben & Michael, Ted & Emmet, Mel & Linds) Korea - Glass Shoes ::Yuri Kudu:: (Pu Zhexiong & Kim YunXi) All these shows are in different languages, but they all have one thing in common. They made me cry!! The ending is not your typical fairy tale with happy ending. They didn't end up together. In fact some died. *sob* Just thinking 'bout it made me wannna bawl!! It tells us the truth about relationships in life. Its not smooth, definitely heart-wrenching, and super sweet!! It grips my heart so tight that i feel suffocated while watching 'em. Then i will slap myself to reality. Hehh... Lame.. I noe! Any show that can make me cry, really portrays relationship and heartaches. Currently im watching Su-jung Vs Kahr a Korean Series, now airing at Channel U at 10pm, weekdays. For this show, I cant cry even when i want, coz i always watch it with the boys... (^.^) If any of you sees the Glass Shoes Boxset with English Subtitles, PLEASE inform me asap by tagging me oryte!! syidazz heartbroken the princess ost - as long as Labels: matters of the heart Tuesday, April 8, 2008
rabbit soup anione??? i tried to fix the frikking mio tv, but there is a crazy rabbit jumping arnd on the screen... i was on the phone for nearly an hour, the rabbit jus wont go away!! i was on the phone with the 'trouble shooter'.. "haa..?? rabbit??"he souded so helpless when i said the rabbit is still there after he told me to do this n that.. haha!! n mommy is sure that a rabbit have taken over the tv.. ahhaaha!! but seriouss ly.. the rabbit has gotta go! finally i told him that it would be great if he could send over the professionals to do it!! n i am certainly not the pro!! ahha! minor stuff i can use my brains.. but this, is hurting my butt even more!! watever!! i gotta settle some other stuff in this mess... so i will get back to euu.. lol! syidazz i hate rabbits Labels: evil bunny blah blah blah its 1.10pm now n i juz reached home like 20 mins ago.. i woke up freakish-ly early today.. main reason coz wani is getting her house today.. so i tot i wanna go too.. n help her clean the house.. but she wouldnt let me slide across her floor bare-ass... darn!! \ i went out at abt 9am.. me n mom went to CDC for some stuff regarding Daneal school. we were there until 10pluss... i wanted to have mcdonalds breakfast!!! by the time we left it was exactly 10.45.. i shouted my lungs out jus for breakfast n behave like a 8 yr old at tampines central.!! haha!! i took off after mom gave me $$ to go get my breakfast.. so i went there alone and ordered.. then mom called and ask me to order for her.. we ate and at abt 11am i was sort of on my way to wani hse.. i called her but she says that she is goin to buy stuff for her house.. so i ask her if it was ok to come later coz i wanted to watch a movie first.. i went to GV TM but the queue was ridiculously long for a weekday morning... so i went to e-zone n played pool... ALONE!!!! damn!! haha.. i was half way thru wen a group of chinese boys came n took the table beside me.. they r very good.. and i felt so inferior.!! hahah!!! kinda watching each other play... it was quite easy to play alone.. no pressure or anitin.. maybe i might be goin back there to have another round alone... hehh.. anione wanna join me, can tag me.. hoho!! i wanted to meet farah at town area. but mom called and wanted me to fix the t.v!! hmm... i kinda told her i would fix it bfore my holidays ended... 3more weekdays before my skool reopens... so i have to get it done asap!!! maybe tomorrow i will drop by wani house!! kinda excited!! haha!! (padahal bukan rumah aku!!) haha!!! btw, thanks to syafiqah!! for chatting with me last night n telling me to go arcadetown.com if im bored!! haha!! i played sally salon till abt 3am coz of my usual condition -insomnia- mom is trying to find me a husband!!! - i tink - shoots!!! she drop hints!! damn!! i told her "uh bole uh!! recommend pt fiqa or daneal.." then she kept quiet!! hhah!!! i am soo not the wifey material.. n i dont do husbands or boyfriend... so dont even tink abt it mom!! i am trying to get a part-time temp position at any car workshops to get started in this industry!! so anione got 'lobang' pls tag me!!! haha!!! syidazz imploexsive queer as folk sound tracks Labels: blah blah blah botak my lil sunny boy dah botak!!!! damn!!!! Labels: edryan dah botak Saturday, April 5, 2008
i will make it!! =p Last wednesday i went to meet farah, my cuzzie, at bugis.. there was lots of people.. we 1st went to bugis junction walk2.. then we went to eat at LJS... talk2.. then we went to a internet cafe.. n farah had stuff to do.. so i took the next cubicle n watch QAF!!! wahahaha!!! we sat there abt 1hr.. then farah had to go for an interview at Mimigar... she told me to fill in the form too.. so i did.. the interviu was short.. both of us were having 2nd thots... then we proceed to 1 nite stand.. i wanted to werk there since last year.. but my bday is on December.. by the time i was already working at summer bReeze... now, since im not working at summer breeze as often, i might wanna tryout at 1 nite stand.. i really hope i get the job man... the place is cool.. somewhat a comedy stand.. i guess.. hmm.. i thot i had a choice.. i didnt wanna work.. but then, i saw my BTT book.... i want to get my license by end this year or early next year... i really have to.. i maybe going into car sales for 6 mth after my graduation.. tryout 1st... if it suits me n i can handle the pressure, i will continue.. if not, its job hunting... or as i have said, i may ask Mr Chew to recommend me to Borneo Motors or Motor Image.. i have big plans for my future.. i will break it to smaller bite-size pieces... i dont wanna end up depending on my kids (if i even have one) when im aging.. i wanna depend on myself only... im gonna move to NY or Japan... Which one suits me better... we'll see.. and to those who is laughing at my dreams.. u can go fuck urself.. coz i m gonna make it.. not gonna stick around for too long.. jus get things done n im off... living my ACTUAL life... there is this building near tekka mall (i tink) it is soo beautiful.. me n farah stood there dreaming that it would be awesome if we owned that.. n i noe farah is gonna make it one way or another.. same for me... but itmay not be near tekka mall.. it mayb at Japan or New York City... haha.. i love the thot n i will work my way towards my dream.. ::those who mind dont matter, those who matter dont mind:: syidazz determined upside down - jack johnson Labels: typical blog Friday, April 4, 2008
as i am blogging here.. i m also deletind all off my online profiles... no particular reason why... and to all my true frens who still wanna keep in touch.. u can call, sms, email, or tag me.. this blog n my prev live journal will be the only online stuff that i m keeping... and not to forget.. my msn will still be available... im a lil sad leaving myyearbook tho... n multply will still be available.. lol!! i will order those that i have deleted... -tagged -friendster -myspace thats all for today.. i cant go into myyearbook.. bad connection i guess.. i do it tommorow then.. thats all.. syidazz leaving Labels: reducing internet usage... Tuesday, April 1, 2008
at summer breeze for the last time.. work was alright... but still.. i have to deal with idiot, fa-ge... he took advantage of me working.. he made himself a nuisance in the kitchen and i was left to handle the floor with Huang Lei.. and Eileen helped too... he even bullied Huang Lei.. he punched the guy, jumped on to his shoulder and stuff.. i told Huang Lei to fight back.. but he said no need.. coz he dont fight with short people.. Wahahahahah!!! good one there... and huat saw it n heard us!! when i was leaving at 11.. i said bubye to aunty, eileen at the bar.. huat was skiving, then when i was walking along the pathway.. he shouted "SWINE" i turned, n flashed my middle finger at him.. when i turned around.. he was shouting some stupid stuff.. i jus walked away n pumped up my mp3... that was a lil something from me... a few more provokes i would be sending him down the drain... now im friggin hungry... i last ate at 6pm juz now.. urrgghhh... i really pity Huang Lei having to put up with huat nonsense.. i beleive if he had known that he would have to face huat, working with him, he wouldnt come to singapore and work... i jus had to be considerate and made it less stressful for him by helping here and there... hmm... Lin Kai was like "syida.. syida.." haha.. i guess he too miss me.. lolx!! who wouldnt?? thats all.. now looking for songs to download!! wahaha... syidazz pissed off mandy - westlife Labels: hmmm.... |
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