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Syida Starr, 221289twitter/facebook/blogger if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? wait for me, Pictures
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Monday, March 31, 2008
pixxies last a lifetime.. *i hope*  i was bored... so i made a collage of my self.... hahhaha... Vain-pot!! not wrong mah... to love oneself more than anione else... hhaahha.. i also edit some sunny boy pics...  this pic was taken by mii!! at yana house!! naked sunshine!! hahah.. amcm wani?? ok tk?? lolx!!! now i m goin to siap2 4 werk.. bubyezz... syidazz rushed republica - ready to go Labels: pic editted by syidazz untitled im goin back to werk at summer breeze back.. jus for today... coz aunty msgd me tis morning... so i agreed... no reasons needed... most probably i will be werking with fa-ge alone.. darn.. wth!! jus do it.. end of the month... then collect my remaining pay... i decided that i dont wanna werk animore and have informed mommy that she will be supporting me till i graduate n get a job... i may be asking for Mr Chew help to recommend me to either Borneo Motors or Motor Image... when i graduate.. but to ask of that i need to give him good attendance and good grades.. mostly attendance... i m suppose to meet someone at 3pm at junction 8... now its 2.24 and i m still in front of the lappie blogging.. hmm... too far.. sorry.. not goin... ~and he is calling me now~ not picking up** bustard sakk syidah!!!! hmm... no apologies, no regrets... my hororscope says "When an unusual scheme is brought to your attention today, be very wary of it." it also says tat if these things need my approval to go forward, i m not suppose to give it... but i gave it already.. but that was b4 i read my horoscope.. im just making amendments... n i m goin to move to New York or Japan when i have nothing left in singapore... syidazz cucumber cool Labels: back to summer breeze...?? Thursday, March 27, 2008
To everyone!!! please take a second to watch this vid... Please stop Gay violence!! Or violence of any kind...! Make it a beautiful place for all of us to live in... thank you!! Labels: stop violence Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Study the situation carefully and STOP judging Situation 1 Syida sits at the corridor chair all alone till late... Listening to her mp3... accompanied by only her handphone and earpiece, no other soul... mom: oit ape kao buat??!! ko isap rokok kn!! syida: (opens up her arm) mane rokok??!! Situation 2 Fiqa doesnt come home after school. Instead, she went out with her boyfriend to watch a movie commemorating their fucking pathetic 2 weeks of relationship... mom: ko la ni, syida!! tk tau nk respek budak tuh pai budak 2 tk nk dok uma!! syida: sape lagi tue skarang??!! je kalo tk tau respek org jgn harap ako nk respek jek!! if you were to study both situation carefully, in both situation Syida was blamed, and wronged.. even though in situation 2, Fiqa was the one who made the ultimate decision to go out n fuck... To all parents, if you do not want your children to feel the way Syida is feeling towards her mom right now, stop blaming and start analysing the situation before opening your fucking mouth... syidazz hated heal the world - michael jackson Labels: situation  -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------  syidazz love queer as folk Labels: queer as folk aston martin in my dream!!! yarr!!! Another boringday in my life.. hmm... so as you may expect i will be ranting my fingers off typing shits that bothers me and i m doin littie to do anithin bout them... watever... i had a very strange dream.. mix feelings... attraction, fear, sadness, anger, confusion, happiness... felt so real.... some dude called on my phone saying that whether anot i m ready i will have to go to this place... to just stay there... wani was there too... i donno why... but i started crying then he said that he wants to take me out that night.. i ask in what.. he said a bus.. but later he came in a car... looked like an Aston Martin... then 'somehow' , the car was falling from some pipes...?? hmm... then i woke up... i went to the toilet.. relieve myself... then i went back to sleep... this dude called again.. it reads "RIDAN Calling" who the fuck is Ridan...?? i answer the phone.. and he said something i jus cant recall... darn!!! then i woke up... ate nasi goreng, and here i am now sharing with euu my dreamm... btw, where is wani..?? she said she is gonna mit me 2day to take stuff from yana house and send to Pak Busu house... then never call.. very hard to reach her.. she is not online on msn.. n her pp8 low.... mcm mane nik?? mommy just called... me: hello mom:buat pe? membute? me: uh.. mom: da makan lom?? me: da.. mom: ayah masak?? me: uhuh.. mom: ayah masak aper? me: nasi goreng mom: nasi goreng i yang masak lah... ayah masak aper?? me: uhhh.... ntah... tk masak uh.. mom: kol brape ko nk bangon? me: (i da bangon perr) jap agy.. mom: jangan lupe mop rumah.. da brape hari tk mop.. me: ok... mom: ko jgn ok jek...blah blah blah............ me: uh ok.... mom: k bye.. love u... me: bye love u 2. *hang up* gawsh.. do i even have to type down my convo wif mommy... darn... hmm.... k luhh.. i am gonna do some chores around here n make myself useful... do the friggin laundry, bathe n go out... yess... i havent yet bathe... and no. i dont smell bad... lolx!!!! syidazz stiill confused... Labels: 25 march 2008, convo Sunday, March 23, 2008
 i really cant stand listening to fucking jiwang music over n over again mann.. i really gotta do sumthin.. gawshh... today almost the entire day i was helping momm with her frenster n multiply... gawshh... i cant stand this mann.. every generation shud have thier own thing.. n her generation's is supose to be sewing my pants and things like tat.. its ok if she wants to upgrade herself but, "Mar pon ader frenster tau!!" WTF!!!!! damn tat slut!! gonna wipe her someday dude... spoil my mom...!!! wakakaahh... n just now i was watching Justin Prom Dance with Brian n a guy came to the door to sell "Al-Fatihah" book... i rejected him.. sorry dude... i am fuckin watching 2 gays dancing n u came!!! absolutely wrong time on earth dude.. im sooo sure i will burn in helll for thiz shitt... darn... so is it... my life is a fucking mess.. or my fucking life is a mess?? some one please!!! help me!!! syidazz heavy.. ontheheadandtummy nothing last forever - maroon 5 Labels: my life is a mess All that matters is that I KNOW what I WANT i was so fuckin pissed just now.. dammnn!! so i dug out some of my old vcd n watch '8 Mile' damn... i miss eminem man... ahhahah... i got his songs PERMANANT in my mp3 dude!!! haa.. then i watch 'fast n furious: tokyo drift" i was reminded why i chose Autumotive Technology w/o thinking twice.. i was soo amazed at the drifts!! i logged on to youtube n watch some drifts vids... freak man..!! pls see my 'wishlist' if u have tons of money n dunno where to waste it, i suggest u empty my wishlist!!!! WTF!!! hahha... i wonder who will be so generous.. hmm..??? will u? ---------------------------------------------------------------- kak siti drop by jus now wit baby ilhan n abg rizam... baby ilhan was kinda scared at 1st cuz he didnt really recognise us.. later biler da season... he was laughing n smiling.. gawsh... soo cute seyy... n XiaoHui told me he is goin back China in september... he missed his parents n his g/f.. duurrgghh.... hah... i feel 4 u dude... lol... he said he wants to get married n wants to have babies.. -wtf- hah.. then i told him that i m not gonna have any... WHY?? COZ... troublesome... yepp.. tats it.... i mean, yarr they r cute n bring joy to the world.... (gosh! who said that man??) but its just not my thing... ok.. maybe i will change my mind in future.. jus tat 4 now, i cant see any babies or husbands in MY future... i jus see myself... and, no, u r not in it too.. sorry dude.. hahaa... so now in my life... im planning for my future... hmm... some ass said this " Manusia merancang, TUHAN yang menentu kan" so YOU better make my plan work out dude... haha... sometimes i feel that the only way i can try to 'communicate' with HIM is thru blogging.. the main reason is tat i seldom pray.. hehh... fuck me... no woder my fuckin life is a mess... so, tats it you busy body muther fucker!! hahah!! syidazz im OK after watching 8 mile n tokyo drift.. woot!!! Hailie's Song - Eminem Friday, March 21, 2008
EARN YOUR RESPECT U LOW CLASS BITCH!! i may sound fuckin pathetic for bothering what my parent say bout me... i got bursary award 3 times so far... Primary 4 Secodary 2 ITE 1st year but they still say im "bodoh" why uh?? whereas the ugly dog behind me , the dog they have been prooud of since it is small... havent gotten any since god-knows-when.... i mean seriously larr.. im not trying to say i am smarter than this dog.. coz it is OFFICIALLY PROVEN!!!! so what if it is the one now at home is skinny.. coz her brain size is smaller than her waist size..really... so isit just me or are my parents love dogs soo much?? i cant cook, but i can change car tyres... i cant sew, but i can fix ur car brakes... i cant change a baby diaper, but i can overhaul an engine... can the dog do these mom??? if yes, then she can suck my cock!!! now i dun give a fuck.. coz i dont have any younger sister.. i have a dog for shure.. a very smelly one... the room is mine.. u r OUT!! i will still be in that room... and i m not moving out anitime soon..coz i still havent teach u how to earn respect... *dogs need lessons, im giving em slowly* syidazz confused../?? p.s my brain size is the same as my waist size.. lolx!! Labels: i have a dog Goodbye Queer As Folk... *sniff sniff* I WILL LOVE YALL TILL DEATH OK!!! these friggin vids made me bawl my eyes out infront of the lappie... darn you!! i have watched the part where Justin accepts Brian's marriage proposal repeatedly since i finished the show early tis year... damn... i stumble upon one of the "Goodbye Queer As Folk"
in the intro, Peter Paige said some thing sooo truee!!! "They came for the Queer. But they stayed for the Folks"
i watched the whole vid through and tears keep flow down my cheeks.. but i dont regret 'knowing' Queer As Folk.. Coz it has, in one way or another, gave me a new, more realistic perspective of life... love... it is soo much more that u will begin to love the people around you difrently... unless of course if some prick really dont deserve this special love tat is outta tis world.. *che*
now!! im gettin ready for another round of tears, tissue & QAF.. Lets GO!!
syidazz sadd.. :'(
Labels: queer as folk THANKZ WANI!!!! LOLX! helloo!!!!! nice anot?? wani help me with the thingy all nite ... hoho.. thenxz... uhh... mommy noisy luhh... later i add some stuff ok!!! hehh.. syidazz bleah.. hi every one...  my 3rd try on bloggers... wish me luck... i will still be at lj.. -just in case- |
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